Another day without a dollar

Today started out extremely early. 4:30 to be exact. My mind is a wonderful tool so I have heard but what do you do when your mind is racing? I struggle with getting into the Christmas mood but life has put water on that flame. The cold temps arent making it any easier as I watch my boys head off to school. I wonder if I am making the right choices for them and giving them all the oppertunities that are available. I want so much for them and feel as if I am failing them. I tend to be a bit hard on myself yet feel that if I am not, then I will truely fail. Being a parent is hard. It is even harder to handle two disable children. I think back to my foundations and realize that all things are possible with Jesus. He is my comforter, my rock, my father to the fatherless, my husband. I lean on him and realize that this storm shall pass.